Fruits Of Labour

He came from the depths

of dark days.


Grandparents of unfulfilled dreams

passed pain to parents

as they strove for better

for their offspring:

materialistic emphasis

getting on

building a new world


of personal sacrifice.


Fear of ‘not enough’

caused his parents

to strive harder:

always doing… doing

avoiding… avoiding

their own needs


discontent surfaced

marriage collapsed

life shattered




Confused     hurt     angry

he rebelled:

played truant from school

ran with gangs

who carried weapons

threatened suicide

and his mother’s life

with a knife.


He chose alcohol

as his vehicle of destruction

the anaesthesia for his rage

and the excuse

for its explosion.


Long-haired and tattooed

he joined a mate

of similar demeanour:

stole a car

drove it while unlicensed


under the influence

ignored red lights


and planted foot

when police pursued.


He emerged

from holding cells

days later

black-eyed     fat-lipped


from metal round wrist

to post

while body flung down stairs

nose broken in two places.


He emerged

with eight serious charges

to the arms     and wrath

of his pregnant

teenage girlfriend.


He came from the depths

of darkness

and moved into the depths

of despair.


  1. Kathryn Coughran

First published: 1994

In: Family Matters

(Kathryn Andersen)

Once Each Year

In my childhood

New Year’s Eve

was equaled

only by Christmas.


We donned bathers and hats

piled into Rickety Kate

~ our Ford of ’27 vintage ~

and headed for the beach.


My father drove

along endless country roads

over the narrow bridge

with the bend high above water

which scared me so much

I hid behind the front seat

until danger was past

and I knew we would not fly

to our deaths

encapsulated in our car

at the bottom of the river.


An early lunch

ensured a vacant table

where we spread a cloth

crockery and food

prepared by my mother

in previous days

of searing heat.


We devoured chicken salad

my brother’s birthday cake   

and family specialties

made from secret recipes


we grudgingly cleared scraps

and packed left-overs.


Restrained to allow

an hour for lunch to settle

we were like chained puppies

impatient to frolic

in the water.


When unleashed

we ran until waist high in the sea

squealed as undercurrents

dragged our feet from beneath us

and bolstered ourselves

against the strength of waves

anxious to break

over our heads.


We collected shells

built sandcastles

and watched them disintegrate

with the incoming tide

then we ran for another dip

before splashing Mum and Dad

as we begged a canoe ride

in the river’s mouth.


With the sun’s descent

we flopped      exhausted

onto vinyl seats

that stuck to our legs.


We fell asleep to the engine’s hum

content in the knowledge

that in one year

we would again enjoy

our annual family outing.

c.  Kathryn Coughran


Poignant Reminder


It’s still here

hasn’t changed really…


I imagine

familiar carpet     curtains

pull-down light     over dining table

but sense     the energy

is different     now


New people     live

in these rooms


I wonder

at the brand of love    that bounces

off the walls     penetrates

their hearts


and remember

time     spent here

struggling for air     choking

with confusion


and know     the decision

to leave     saved my life.


c. Kathryn Coughran


Highly Commended: 2005 Joan Johnson Poetry Award (Kathryn Andersen)


Yin & Yang

For Ashlee – 22.08.1991-12.09.2013 


Twelve inch thongs on three inch feet

left on right     right on left

four small toes fitting neatly

in the space of one adult big toe…

you strut about the house

chin held high

golden curls flowing to your waist.


You snatch your brother’s toy

while Mum’s back is turned

smile in glee as you watch him punished

for trying to get it back.


‘Mine!’ you screech

when your empty cup is removed from the table

or if someone should hold an item you want.


‘No, not!  Tell my Daddy, you!’ you pout

when unable to have your way.


You insist on calling David ‘Dave’

announce ‘Dave, you’re Grandmum, right?’

and ‘Grandmum, you’re Dave’

then proceed to address us

by each other’s name

for as long as it suits you.


Contrary to the core

a storehouse of limitless energy

you fill the room with your presence…


as you do      when you sit

on your mother’s lap

look intently into her eyes 


walk hand in hand with big brother

exploring flowers and butterflies

and when you

lie quietly with baby    tenderly stroking

his tiny limbs


when you sing to Dolly

as you tuck her into bed


and most treasured of all


when you bounce into my room

angelic face framed by silken hair

eyes sparkling beneath long lashes

excited smile exuding from young lips


softness      softness      everywhere…


c. Kathryn Coughran


First published: 1994 in Family Matters (Kathryn Andersen)

Also: 2017 on Scriggler –


Poison Tongues

‘A’ says something to ‘B’ about ‘C’.

‘B’ agrees, and adds a little.

Her fire fuelled, ‘A’ contributes again.

Hyped, ‘B’ continues

making it up as she goes.


Reaction… leads to reaction…

leads to reaction…


A fact, taken out of context

twisted and distorted with jealousy,

is moulded

until the meaning has changed.


‘B’ can’t wait to tell ‘C’ what ‘A’ has said.

‘A’ soon takes her opportunity

to report to ‘C’

that ‘B’ has been tale-telling.


Both ‘A’ and ‘B’ believe

they have spoken the truth:

each has shared their reality

even if maliciously…


and the truth lies

somewhere in between.


 c. Kathryn Coughran


First published: 1993 in Live At Don Bank – Live Poets’ Society Anthology  

Also: 1994 in Family Matters (Kathryn Andersen)

Also: 2017 on Scriggler –



Nipped In The Bud

Wedged        in a bed of snow

against a backdrop of bricks

the headstones        stand in rows

like the teeth of an old man

with gingivitis.


Not the graves of soldiers       

taken in battle

as first glimpse would suggest


fifteen hundred children

of Sarajevo

ripped        from the future.


 c. Kathryn Coughran


First published: 1994 in Family Matters (Kathryn Andersen)

Best Poem Of The Night: Penrith Sailing Club Readings 1998…

…Chosen by a scout from The Joan Sutherland Centre


From My Window

I     Simple beauty meets the eye…

a still, but ever-changing landscape

shades and shadows shifting

with the sun.


Morning fog obscures detail

across the valley.


Mist rises from dam

nestled amid rolling green

fodder for cows that wander there

a few times each week.


An orb of earth-sodden roots

of a fallen tree       on distant hillside

blends in       until

reflection takes it

through the spectrum

of yellows and gold

to burnt orange.


Night draws the shutters

and bathes the hills

in moonlight.



II    Closer in       by day

galahs       parrots       peewees

forage for worms and seeds    

in freshly cut grass

and magpies       drift

around the yard.


Their baby visits me     

perches on the clothes line

and       sings his hallowed tune.


I talk to him       from my window.



he brings his mother

to sit beside him

and check me out.



III   In the evenings

small brown frogs

graze on white moths

that flutter       against the glass

drawn by the light.


They wait patiently

for their prey

grey bellies and suction toes

visible from inside.


Freddie and Freida

we call them…

Soon a third appears

a baby

Freddo or Francine

we joke.


We leave the light

on for them      until

bedtime       so they

can have their fill


they are gone

in the stillness of the morning


simple beauty       once more

meets the eye.


 c. Kathryn Coughran  April 2016


First published: December 2016 in The Triangle

Also: 2017 on Scriggler –

… Scriggler Publication of the Day – 22nd March 2017 …